The past weekend

Last weekend my mommy got into a car accident on her way to NY. It's crazy how you can say so much stuff about people and then when something tragic happens you realize how much you really love them. I never said anything terrible about my mom but this weekend I realized that I don't know what I'd do without her....

Late Night Thinking

I'm up and I can't seem to go to sleep because I'm too busy thinking about so much. I swear I can't wait until college is over. Everything is so confusing and nothing is seeming to work out for me. I kind of wish I would've went off to college instead of going to Kettering. My college experience sucks and could've been avoided if I simply followed my first mind. Oh well, I guess you live and you learn that's what makes life worth the while.

Fall Weather

I absoulutely hate the fall weather. This is the season that I always stay sick. The weather is so tricky, going back and forth from warm to cool and I hate it. Make sure you guys bundle up to stay warm, so that you won't get sick like me!

Stressed

Lately it seems like nothing has been coming together at all. I swear I am so stressed, I need a break from everything right now. I think its because I haven't really been sleeping well. I can't wait until I get out of class so I can go home, take a nap, and do some homework.

Confused

Lately i've being foing through a lot not only mentally and emotionally, but physically. It seems like everytime I try to do right things tend to get worse and worse. I'm just ready to be all the way happy and for my life to come together. I kind of feel like I'm not accomplishing anything because I don't even know what I want to do with my life. I don't know I guess I'm just confused.

School Life

I'm kind of actually enjoying the school life as of right now. Today I went down to the learning center and applied for a work study job and I got it. As of October 26th I will be a tutor. I'm kind of excited because I will be getting paid for doing something I love, helping people. I hate to see people frustrated and confused so through tutoring people I will be able to help make their school life a lot easier.

Life

For the past couple of months I have had so many ups and downs in my life. I've never been so confused with what I want to do with myself. When I graduated I started off at Kettering and all was well. I ended my freshmen year with all A's and B's, I was so determined. I was supposed to start school October 3rd this year until I found out that I wouldn't be able to pay my tuition. I was going for Industrial Engineering, but that was because I was going to an Engineering college, but now I'm confused. Hopefully I will find myself by January so that I will not fall any farther behind. As much as I wanted to give up, I'm not it's life and I refuse to fail.

The mind of a Man ?

Ok, so I have a question what goes on in a man's head? Why is it that they expect for a women to be so innocent when they are out doing them? You can only do a person wrong for so long before they have had enough. When will they learn what enough is? I'm so tired of hearing the "I'm still young" excuse, grow up and be a man. A real man respects and cherishes the woman that he claims to love. A real man builds his woman up instead of breaking her down. Sometimes I wish I could read a man's mind just for a day, maybe then I would understand.

Don't Judge Me

Why judge me?
Especically when you are not the one who defines me.
My creator is the one who designed me.
He designed to be imperfect yet perfectly me.
When I look in the mirror what is it that I see?
Not only do I see beauty, but I see ME!
I am hardworking and determined..
Throughout many years I was carefully sharpened.

But still why do you judge me?
I desire for no one but the one above me to love me.
Acceptance, I have that from myself...
That is one thing I do not need from anyone else.
I am who I am, and that's who I'm going to be...
My character reflects everything that makes me, me.

But still why do you judge me?
My life is a book with an undesigned cover...
In my book my purpose has yet to be discovered.
I'm lost, but I do not hide...
My day will soon come, I am not alone...
So don't judge me, give me a chance and you'll learn to love me!